relationships
-
I have drafts of unwritten posts. I start one, lose interest, walk away. Then another, and another. And I can’t figure out why I am having such a block in emoting via the written word, other than the fact that so much has changed for me since I started this blog. So much has changed…
-
I was auditing my posts here after writing about therapy rates increasing yesterday. I’ve been thinking a lot about the story I am telling, the energy I am sending out to the world. Considering how much I have healed. Like a doctor wondering if a patient can breathe on their own after the breathing tube…
-
I cried in the shower this morning. Hot, desperate sobs under the steam. I’m ripping off Band-Aids and pulling out boxes stuffed with trauma. Some days I really have it together, but for months now I’ve just been…raw. Unhinged. Unbridled emotions run amok. All the careful compartmentalization is coming undone and suddenly I am forced…
-
If you’ve been following along, you might have picked up on the fact that my marriage was a bit of a shitshow, and that I am currently wading through the wreckage, unpacking the aftermath, and wanting to find love again. I’ve had my share of struggles in the dating world. Struggles that landed me in…
-
“You’re really not going to like it,” observed Deep Thought.“Tell us!”“All right,” said Deep Thought. “The Answer to the Great Question…”“Yes..!”“Of Life, the Universe and Everything…” said Deep Thought.“Yes…!”“Is…” said Deep Thought, and paused.“Yes…!”“Is…”“Yes…!!!…?”“Forty-two,” said Deep Thought, with infinite majesty and calm.” – Douglas Adams I’m going to be painfully honest here – sometimes life…
-
I keep finding the bottom of myself and looking up for an outstretched hand. All I seem to find is a mirror. These are the things I learned this week that I wish I had known 20 years ago: Hyper-independence Is a Trauma Response I thought I was building a beautiful life, achieving the American…
-
A man I was talking to on a dating app long ago said “You are always smiling. Is that a mask, or are you actually that happy all the time?” And I wanted to hang up on him. Because I was giving him my best and he wanted to see behind the mask. Because he…